Eric B's story: I've Realized I'm An Alcoholic

by Eric
(Rancho Santa Margarita)

Wow! I just realized I pissed on my rug in front of my couch. How bizarre is that. Its almost like I woke up in the middle of it, already finished peeing, but not remembering ever starting.

I just got back from a Super Bowl party but I don't remember getting home and I'm naked. It was only after I stood up that I realized how wet the rug was. So I started to get paper towels and rags from under the sink to try to sop it up, when my wife came out and said, "what are you doing".

I said I spilled some water but I know it's going to smell like piss. It's amazing how I'm coherent now, and texting this, but 30 min. ago I was pissing on my carpet. I feel like shit because I drank to much and I know it, but I drink every day and I usually don't have blackouts like this.

I mean I drink every day and in fact I just had hernia surgery 17 days ago, and I drank right up to the day before the surgery and started 2 days after. I was on antibiotics so I did my best to stop after the surgery. Two days is pretty good.

But blacking out and pissing on the carpet is just bizarre. I'm 50 years old and I know I'm an alcoholic, I've been drinking heavily for the last 20 yrs. and I've had blackouts before, but I just didn't think I drank that much more than usual.

I think that's why I looked up this sight, not because I'm drunk, but because of the peeing incident. Telling your story is supposed to good for you, right. God help me. I've got to stop drinking. I know it's going to kill me eventually. I feel like throwing up now, and my head is pounding.