My Boyfriend's Alcoholism: Broke Up With Him. Couldn't Take It Anymore

by Me

I just broke up with my alcoholic boyfriend of 3 and a half years because of his addiction. I feel horrible about myself and I wish I could be there to help him but there is only so much I can go through.

He thinks I am "giving up on him" but I have been there for 2 years. The first year I drank along with him but I am just sick of it. He can drink non-stop day and night, we lived the three years together and I was always finding bottles around.

He was 26 and I was 23 and we were trying to get through school without our families around and he was sometimes bringing up suicide so I felt like I couldn't leave. But I do love him and I do want him to be able to quit but one thing for sure is that he needs help, he does drink to numb his emotions.

It's so sad, he is such an amazing, smart, driven guy when he isn't drinking. I have begged him and just cried to let me pour out the alcohol I found and he wouldn't let me. I always would pour it but sometimes he heard me pouring it.

I just thought for I was being too much of his mother than a girlfriend and it wasn't fair to either of us. I like to drink about once a month and he likes to make excuses to drink for everything and if the event is a week in the future he will want to drink for it that day.

I felt trap. It wasn't like I didn't do anything wrong. I had all different types of problems with anxiety and that couldn't have helped but I have told him for months and months now that I would leave if he didn't stop drinking and I have found about 15 large bottles of booze and a bunch of little liquor bottles.

For the first time I feel there is a chance he might try and get help. I never thought at the age 23 I would have been through this but it's what Stephen is living through every day since he was 18.