My Dad, The Depressed Alcoholic.

by Amber Rose

Hello! My name is Rosey, I'm 15 and a Sophomore at high school. This year has been awful. Here is a background check-- A couple years ago, my mother was diagnosed with cancer (which she is now a three year survivor) and my dad's family business burnt down to the ground.

Both my parents drink, well one quit. I never thought of my parents as alcoholic until this year. Both my parents have coke and pure alcohol around 6. My dad has about 4 or 5 shots of alcohol every night. It wasn't that bad yet with my dad but one night my Mom sounded like she was going to kill me.

She was banging on my door and screaming for calling my 27 year old sister, who lives in a different state. She is my best friend and I tell her everything. After that day, I left and stayed at my Grandmothers until I thought I could go back, I was told by many people I should of called the cops if I thought my Mom was going to hurt me.

About 2 weeks later when I left, my Mom moved in with my Grandma and I. I thought what the heck, I left to not see you and now your here!? She said she wanted to quit and take a break. After that, my Grandma took sides with my Mom and I couldn't handle that anymore. I went back to my Dad's when things started getting worse. My dad never got drunk, I never ever saw him drunk except my Mom.

My bedroom is right on the other side of my parents bathroom. In the middle of the night, I heard CLUD! I ran, and my dad's ear was bleeding and his eyes were just pure white. He couldn't stand straight and I thought he over dosed on drugs. (When my Dad gets drunk he doesn't get aggressive, my Mom is. Also, my Dad has depression and is on tons of drugs)

The next day, I called my Mom and she came over and she saw he fell into the shower and broke the door, and she saw all the blood stains. The next couple of days, he kept falling and now I just ignore it.

Now he just drinks straight alcohol, but he hides it from me. I get on him a lot and he often comes back with "I quit, I don't want to lose you". I used to believe that, but now I don't. We often find 3 bottles of alcohol in his room. We also later find 3 bottles in the recycle bin emptied.

Every time we pour it out he goes out and buys more. They are $20! Besides the point, we are broke. My Mom is leaving my Dad now because he won't get help. I'm lost, I have tried to help my Dad get help. The other night we found a large knife in his room. My Mom could of done it though when she was drunk, or slept walk.

But either way, I feel like my life is in danger and I can't take this much longer. I feel like I can't trust either parent. I don't know what to do, should I stay with my Mom? My dad is not an option. My family member who lives in a different state said I am more that welcomed to stay there.

Can you guys tell me what to do? All I do is cry, and cry. I feel so bad for my Dad yet I don't. He started drinking when he was 5! (Not like heavily though). Now some of my friends can't go places with me because my Dad drives and they can't ride with him. I'm not old enough to drive yet either, until this December. Please give me some advise? On what I should do!?